Thursday, 31 January 2013

OMFG I DID IT!

When I started this round I had a total disbelief that I could actually achieve my goal of losing 20kgs for the round, but guess what - I DID!!!

I MADE MY GOAL WEIGHT FOR THE ROUND TODAY!!!! WOO HOOOOOOO!!!!! I celebrated with a PT session and a 5km run! No more junk food celebrations for me... 20kgs lost for the round!

I am so happy right now - plus I just tried on my goal pants... TOO BIG!!! HAHAHA!

Now it's a race to see if I can reach my outside goal (of getting to 70kgs)

Tuesday, 29 January 2013

What is happening to me?!?

Well, it's down to the wire now... 1 week and one day to go... what could possibly happen to stop me now?!?... Come on, this is me we're talking about, we all know something has to happen... but I'll get to that in a minute...


Today the kids went back to school!  Hooray, not just for the serenity factor but it was like my coming out party too... The thinner me anyway, and I couldn't have planned it better if I tried...



When we arrived I had lots of compliments (yay) and I even had one mum come up to me and say - I saw your facebook post and I wanted to let you know that I have joined up too - She said she was telling me because she was doing the say it out loud task and she knew I would understand - and I totally did.  I was so excited for her...  If she can have the same turn around I have had she is going to be the happiest woman in 12 weeks time!



PLUS - on the way out my ex- best friend (who I use as motivation to prove how good my life is with out her) drove past me in the car park and did a double take! IT WAS AWESOME!  My hubby was with me and he was cracking up laughing at her reaction, apart from the fact that she swerved out and nearly ran him over -  but that feeling -, ahhhh - it was worth every bit of pain, sweat and tears - and totally felt as good as I thought it would... God, does that make me shallow... pftt don't care - I so earned that feeling!

 So really, after a start to a day like that what could possibly happen to de-reail the stopping all stations Haze-train??

Well, let me tell you!  So, in case you haven't read my earlier posts, you may not be aware of the fact that I have PCOS, and out of all the bad things about it, there is an upside for me, I NEVER EVER get my period... EVER.  When I did my IVF treatments I had to take drugs to get one, and I wasn't overly impressed by the whole affair either...

Anyway, about a 2 or so weeks ago I got really crampy, and I got tender breasts... and I rushed out and bought a pregnancy test, miracles happen right?  Nope, it was a single line only... no miracles for me this month...  So this crampy thing has been going on for the past 2 weeks and I wasn't sure what to make of it... I assumed it was just something to do with the weight loss and my body readjusting... Then I craved chocolate, after 16 weeks I saved up one of my snacks and had a chocolate last night - and it was GOOD...


OK so I know the signs are all there and they are all really obvious, but delirious me continued on in my own little world... Until... I was doing a zombie run this afternoon - and let me tell you I was KILLING it!!  I did 5 x 5min free form runs (with no stopping with 3 min walks in between) Totally zombie proud brag moment... I was on my last run when I got a terrible shooting pain under one of my ribs... I assumed it was a stitch, I never get stitches, W.T.F man...

But I got home to find out that it was TTOTM (for me M stands for millennia) It explains sooo much - like yesterday I had a meltdown moment when I got on the scales and saw that I had put on 200gms! and I haven't cheated on diet or exercise...  Plus I got all teary during my Zombie run the other day - I was  bawling my eyes out while I was running because one of the people who tell the story had a loved one die... And today when I was running off that 200gms I started to get all teary when I realised I had nearly lost 20 kgs and I was so close to my goal...

So now I can explain the gain I dont feel so bad, I was dreading having to tell you all about it... But I am hoping after the accelerator day, and the run I did today I will be at least even or even a bit under last weeks weigh in...

I'll let you all know tomorrow!

Friday, 25 January 2013

A week of highs, lows and everything in between

I'm not sure where to begin...I have had a week of high highs, and low lows, and one silly incident that could only happen to me...  I guess I will start with the bad first...

I was made to feel bad by some people I considered friends, without going into details let's just say I was down for a few days before I decided to 'Take back the power' (well that's what Dr Phil would say)  I was giving in to other peoples perceptions and starting to believe them - well, that had to stop!  I felt a downward spiral approaching, you know the one, the self loathing that's followed by bad eating and pity parties in front of the TV?!?!

So I sucked it up, got back on top of things and kept to my diet and exercise routine and things started to come good...until my husband and I made the decision that  has been coming for a while... we will have to sell our farm :(

It's only a relatively small hobby farm (14 acres) but we've been here for 8 years and in that time we have planted a full orchard, and just put in our own olive trees to make our own olive oil.  So by the time everything comes good we will no longer be here...  But it's the little things that have me down again, like the boys height marks on the wall that we have made every month.  It's the kids hand prints in the concrete slab of the shed, the 2 oak trees growing in the front garden that I gave Matt for our wedding present, and (here's the killer) the Mulberry tree my Mum bought me to plant in our chook pen just before she died... (blerk I still dont want to think about it)

But the work has become too much for Matt, as he already works a lot (and is away for work a lot) and when he has a weekend or holidays he is stuck with all the handy man jobs that I can't do... plus with me going back to full time Uni soon and then working, all the stuff I currently do wont get done either...  We have been left with no time for ourselves or each other so we made the hard decision to sell...

I dread the thought of moving back into suburbia... our current house is 7 bedrooms so there is the down sizing thing too... Plus we still have all the work we to do to get the house to a salable condition, which is going to take 6 months to complete, so we cant just up and move and get it over with...  <insert big sigh here>

So there's my lows... Now for my highs...

I finally did a Zombie run on the road, so I was able to track exactly how far I can go now - 8.7kms!!

Ok, so that's a jog/walk combo and it takes me 1:20hrs but still it's a far cry from the girl who had to hold her boobs in place to get 50 meters and then have a head ache for the next 2 days! 

I have done 2 zombie runs this week plus 2 PT sessions, softball training was cancelled and we have a bye this week.... so I haven't done much else, because (here comes the silly Hazism) I dislocated my shoulder doing star-jumps!!!

I know, I know, it could only happen to me right!?  But it's not as bad as it sounds... I was doing a round of 50 (x3) star jumps at bootcamp, when as I was raising my arms I heard it pop, but I was in the swing of things and when I bought my arm back down it popped again... I crunched and ached through the rest of the session but I just assumed I had wrenched it some how...  It wasn't until it became increasingly painful and I lost full motion of it that I realised when I had done...  so after a terrible sleepless night it is still aching but I have nearly the full range of movement back but now its just really, really sore!!

But hey, that's the bad and the ugly, now for the good news...

I got an email from MB saying that I was in the top 15% of Round 4'ers  with an 11.95% loss  - That's pretty cool hey!?  Although if we count warm-up and pre-season it's about a 20% loss which is way cooler!

Another bit of good news is that I am only about 1kg away from  my initial round 4 goal of losing 20kgs before the next round begins, admittedly I secretly wanted to get to 70kgs but 71.2 was my initial goal and I am so close - if I can get to 71.2 or below I will be very proud of myself - haters be damned!!! 

Which means as of last Wednesdays weigh in I have only got 7kgs to lose to get to my healthy weight range... I know it will take me a month or two to get there but I was really happy when I realised I was closer to being in the healthy weight range than I am to being in the obese category (which is where I was when I started)

So here's to us getting to our goals!

Friday, 18 January 2013

Rocking a size 12!

Yesterday sucked!  It's been a long time since I have felt the way I did.  I usually let drama and B.S. slide off me but yesterday was crappy!  I don't know how many times Evil Haze told me to 'Pick up that bag of chips and sit on the couch,' or If you drop out of the 12WBT it wont matter,'  and I don't know how many times I considered eating badly for the instant gratification...  Eventually I decided that if I were to cave like that I really would be letting the haters win...  And I'm all about the proving them wrong...

So after what seemed like a never-ending day filled with drama and discord I showered, got into my PJ's, picked up a book and read for 4 hours straight...  I sometimes like to escape into a fantasy world where the drama happens to others and I am but a mere spectator - no I didn't go for a run, no I didn't take it out on the treadmill but hey, it's better than eating crap!

I finally got to bed at about midnight and slept through till 7:30am - Ahhh!   A little bit of sleep and a good read left me all refreshed and ready to start a new day with a new, positive outlook.

Dad rang, he got his Dr's results and he has type 2 Diabetes...  He wants my help to lose weight and start eating healthy!  So I drove around to his place, we talked it through and we went and did his groceries together.  I was so proud of him!  Even though he is on the pension and cant afford to buy a lot I managed to talk him into buying light and low fat things and showed him how to work out calories etc.

After we finished our groceries I stopped off at Big W and Target to buy some cheap 'interim clothes'  I really dont have anything left that fits but as I want to lose more weight I needed some cheap clothes that would get me through the next month or two...

I looked through all the racks of clothes but didn't like much - until I realised I was in the 'big girls' section!!  I don't need to go to the 'Big' section anymore!!!  Woo Hoo so I grabbed a bung of size 14's and headed for the change rooms - THEY WERE TOO BIG!!  OMG I am a size 12!!!  I took a pic in the change room of me wearing a 'Stretch' size 14 top and size 12 pants!  Yes, I know the top is too clingy (at the moment) and I didn't buy it - But I did buy 4 pairs of size 12 pants!!! OH YEAH!!

And just for a change, I really enjoyed shopping, I had grown to hate it - and before now I predominately bought all of my clothes online... This is AWESOME - I went from a day of disaster yesterday, to a day of delirium today - Now when my friends want to go out for shopping and coffee - I CAN GO!

Wednesday, 16 January 2013

Weigh in day week 9

So today I only had a 400gm loss :( - I think the issue is now that I am not eating enough... plus I am being a big old slacker in the water drinking department too...  It is on my list of things to do better at. (It's a bloody long list too)

On Monday (or day after embarrassing bee sting) I was fine and I got up to exercise to find my hubby on the bottom of the shower (yes in my spot too) but he was sick, really really sick... I turns out he is allergic to bee stings...  So I got him out of the shower and I was very worried about him, so all plans of training went out the window.  Plus he refused to accept it was an allergy or go to the hospital...

I ended up playing nursemaid all day - without the sexy outfit - and got nothing done.  Very disappointing and not at all going to cut it.  By the late afternoon he was out of bed and moaning on the lounge so I decided that he wasn't going to die and I took the kids and the puppy for a 6km walk into town and back, admittedly I bribed them with icy poles in town if they came with me but we all went for the walk and I managed to burn just over 200 Cals - so the day wasnt a complete waste!

Tuesday we walked around the city shopping and today I had softball practice (did I mention how much I am now loving softball?)  tomorrow is going to be 41!!!  So it's a pool party polooza with the both of the kids having friends over for the day... and Friday I WILL go for a Zombie run BEFORE my PT session if I can get all the kids down to the oval with me (I have 5 kids sleeping over Thursday night)  But I really need a big cal burn day and I need it NOW!!!

Did anyone else LOVE accelerator Tuesday??  OMG I ate sooo much and was so full it was amazing!!  We had snapper on the BBQ and blue swimmer crabs for dinner and it was AMAZING...  If only seafood wasn't so darn expensive - I spent $53 for seafood for 2 adults and 2 kids... But it was super fresh and super yummy... and I am not buying take out any more which would have probably been about the same so I shouldn't complain!

How was everyone elses weigh in this week?  3 weeks out from out goals.... YIKES  I really do need to up my game!!!

Sunday, 13 January 2013

Entry 57 - Jan 13 2013

I have got another embarrassing tale to tell you all, but I will leave it until a bit later to fill you in... I have other things that I need to get out of the way first...

I mentioned the other day that I am organising a local bootcamp to get everyone involved... Well it is now happening - every Friday and every Monday, which means I kind of have to attend... But I am replacing my one on one session with the PT for 2 bootcamps - financially it works out the same but I got far bigger DOM's with my one on one session... I will just play it by ear and if I think that the bootcamps aren't enough for me I will switch to a PT session instead...

Don't get me wrong, at the moment I get DOM's every second session and I still struggle to get through them but they are getting easier each time - even though the work outs are getting harder! Tomorrow I must go for a run first - I haven't done a run for about a week and a half (not including the 1km time trial) so I am feeling like my life as Runner 5 (zombie training speak) is being seriously neglected...

Speaking of DOMs... Yesterday was my 3rd game of softball, (797 cals burnt for the game) but I only got up to bat once (and struck out) the other team KILLED us, even our best players were struck out... but I played second base and ran around a lot then was sent into right field because they were all such big hitters... I was running around like a mad thing - and loving it!

I have been askedif I would like to be trained as a pitcher, something I never really thought about, but yesterday I got out there after the game and practised pitching - and today I can barely lift my right arm! OMG I didn't know how much a pitcher used their tricep muscles... I think I am going to have a big bulging right arm if I dont start working out the other one too!... Or as a friend said I will be a lopsided Popeye!

Well today, once again, I am entirely grateful for my day off, especially due to the fact that it rained a lot this morning, highly unusual for SA this time of year, but we are very glad for it that's for sure! Anyway once the rain cleared we decided that we really needed to go and tend to our bee hives - we are newbie bee-keepers so we are learning as we go too... (here comes the embarrassing story)

We noticed that one of our hives had stuck their frames to the base board with honey comb, this is something we needed to clean up...

So of we trekked all decked out, determined to not get stung again (this has been happening a bit lately, last one was on my cheek bone as it got under my veil). So I was prepared this time, I had long pants, long shirt, veil and long elbow length leather gloves - nothing was going to get me today!

We got the smoker fired up and everything was going smoothly - even though we had some seriously ticked off bees... you can tell when they are angry as their buzzing sounds different.

Anyway, we were doing really well and had scraped the base of the first frame clean when a felt a crawling up my leg - but I couldn't do anything I was holding a bee laden frame with thousands of bees all over it..

Me: 'Maaaattt, There is something crawling up my leg...'
Matt: 'You'll be right, it's probably just an ant, just keep going.'
Me: 'Seriously, the only ants down here are bull ants and I don't want them up my pants, I have to put this frame back in and get it out,'
Matt: 'Next time tuck your pants into your socks.'
Me: ''
Matt: 'Ok, just get the frame back into the hive and get it out'
Me: [rushing to get the frame back in whilst walking like a cowbow so I don't squash the ant into my crotch area] (which is where the thing had crawled to by this stage)
Matt: 'Pull down your pants!'
Me: 'Wow Babe, so romantic... OUCH!!!'
Matt: [trying desperately not to laugh] 'You ok, was it an ant?'
Me: 'NO IT WAS NOT AND IT GOT ME RIGHT ON MY &*^%'

So you get the idea... I got stung on the rude bits by a bee! But then a few bees fell into Matt's glove and stung his wrist (that's what you get for not wearing the right gloves Mr Smarty Pants!) But then I got stung on the shin through my trackie pants, so we gave up - we will have to do it again next weekend... (I am totally wearing Jeans tucked into socks next time) At least the honey that we got was delicious, but totally not worth the price!

So, now the issue is that I have a sore (you know what)....which I am hoping it is better by tomorrow because at this stage I can't walk without it hurting let alone do a boot camp or a run!!

And on that incredibly embarrassing note I am off to cook dinner!

I hope you are all having a good rest day too!! Take care all and fill me in on what you are up to!

Entry 56 - Jan 2013

Mini Milestone fitness test and measure up done!!

Man did I find some excuses not do my 1km time trial till this morning - and I still found some, but none of them were going to stop me today.

I had done everything yesterday and had some good improvements - I knew they weren't going to be as good as my first mini milestone because I think if I lost that many cms again I would be see through... but I haven't yet gone over 1200 cals and I have been getting in some good exercise, although I still haven't done any additional MB workouts... I am going to do those next round, or once I get to my goal weight.

But I am still zombie running, not for a week though as it is too hot, so I have been swimming, softballing and bootcamping... all things I have grown comfortable with, in fact, if I tell you all the truth... I started the bootcamp, I convinced the PT to run them but I organised the times, date, attendees, and I have even designed posters to put up around town and I will be handing them out as flyers at the bootcamp so that people can recruit their friends and work mates...

I am ground zero and I have the get fit bug. Sorry folks, I am afraid it's contagious and it's spreading quickly! Plus I figure the more people attending the less likely I am to pike out, so it's purely selfish motivation!

On other BIG NEWS my oldest has finished his chemo! It's such a big relief, for him and me, although probably for him more - his specialist is on holidays and we will get the results on the 7th March. However we were told all early signs are positive and once the drug have all passed through his system we will know more for sure! YAY US!

Anyway to the stuff you all really want...(yeah right) Here are my results :


Total Loss: 64cms
Total Weight Loss: 17kgs
Wall Sit: 43 second improvement
Push-ups: 4 more from toes and 10 more from knees
Sit and reach: 3cms better
Time Trial - (6:11:7) 23 seconds better than last time (1min 23seconds better over all)

BUT BEST OF ALL...

I REACHED ONE OF MY OWN GOALS - I ran the entire 1km WITHOUT STOPPING!!

There were so many times that I wanted to stop (my heart rate was 198 when I finished) but what got me through was the thought of writing this exact message. I thought of what excuses I could give other than I just couldn't do it - and even though I knew you would all understand.

I just didn't want to let you all down, plus the kids were at home waiting to see if I made it - what sort of an example would I be to them and to you all if I just quit? I wanted to show them and you that if you really try hard you can and will achieve your goals!

How did everyone else go? Does anyone want to share their before and 'after/progress' pictures?