*** Depressing, pity party to follow***
Yesterday was a struggle - a huge struggle.
I had to make 40 cup cakes, 1 huge mud cake (which involved melting
chocolate) and then ice and decorate them - all with out eating
I managed, although at one stage I caught myself about to lick a big glob of melted chocolate off of the back on my hand...
I must have chanted 'the food you've wanted for the last 5 minutes or
the body you've wanted for the past 15 years' it became a mantra
Plus I had a MASSIVE non-confront issue with toning. I was still so
sore I just didn't want to. I was happy to go for a 90 min run but not
the toning.... ANYTHING BUT THE TONING!!
In the end my 12WBT Facebook group got me out of my funk and I did a 30
min Jillian Michael's toning workout - with weight and everything. I
only burnt 228 cals... so I decided after dinner I would take the dog
for a massive walk to burn off more cals...
Oops - forgot it was my sons Chemo night - so that took precedence, then
I got called out to our end of year P&F meeting (that I was running
late for) which was held at my favourite restaurant - (Woodfire Pizza
and Pasta) and all I had was a skinny chai latte!
But I didn't get home till just before 11pm...
Now I know why I am going to have to train in the mornings - Mel, my
training partner, has let me down nearly everyday this week, I have
schedule my work outs around her and when she cancels I get so cranky
because I could have done them hours before...
I think I am just going to work out on my own schedule and if she can make it great, if not then I go it alone.
Pretty bummed out though, I weighed myself this morning and I haven't
lost anything since Wednesday, in fact I was 200gms heavier!! I haven't
cheated on my diet at all, yesterday was terrible though as I only at
1002 cals so I am wandering if that has anything to do with it...
Sometimes I wish that I hadn't started losing weight pre-season because
my numbers would look better, and none of that hard work is going to
count to anyone but me... (told you I was bummed)
This morning I was up at 6am - and ready to train, but I told Mel I
would meet her at 9:20am so I just got all the kids school stuff ready,
and all the cupcakes ready for my youngest to take into class.
I set up the Wii fit and thought I will come home after training and do
some yoga on the Wii... Dropped the kids off - heading to the park, Mel
I head home - really cross as I have so much to do today and I wanted to
train earlier! I got the dog and we went for a 2.5 walk/jog getting
chase by Zombies down my street (I have never zombie run on the streets
before - it was fun - I kept wanting to run in a zig zag to evade the
Got home and did 30 mins on the Wii fit - that told me I was obese and
changed my Wii Mii to a big fat Wii Mii!!! So not only am I cranky, now
even inanimate objects are calling me fat!!
***Sigh*** Oh well, tomorrow I have to watch my son play cricket at 8am,
cook a BBQ for 100 people, then decorate a cake to look like a
Skylanders Portal of Power, cook dinner for 6, prepare for a birthday
party on Sunday with 12 screaming 8 year olds, AND fit in a SSS
somewhere... so I guess there's that to look forward to....***Sigh***